Elton is in the throes of a dilemma. His super-natural experiences might get him diagnosed as a schizophrenic. This would, of course, inevitably lead to what he fears the most - being put on medication that would entail potentially serious side-effects. He would prefer to learn to master these other-worldly experiences on his own, thereby keeping them secret, both for his own personal development, and in order to avoid inviting 'the system' into his life; a system that would surely insist upon his acquiescence to it's demands. His attempts at mastering his condition have, however, proved to be quite difficult, and controlling the experiences may be impossible.