"Someone please help me." Those were the words that I screamed inside my head as I rolled on the floor of my rented box room in the city. What happened afterward changed everything. Without even realising it at the time, I was saved. I was not meant to leave this life just yet. I had been spoken to and helped but not by any physical person. A realization set it. It was my decision, my free will to stay on this Earth and make it the best life possible. Writing has brought up huge pain and sadness but also a freedom to express what I had kept inside for