Your mind, life, and soul are not your own, she was told. Obey scholars because they know Islam better than you. And stay away from "doubtful matters." This is what it means to be a good Muslim. If she disagreed with anything she was being taught, she was confronted with "Who do you think you are?" So year after year, she sacrificed "for the sake of Allah" giving up one thing after the other until she felt exhausted, confused, and unable to be Muslim. In this powerful book, Umm Zakiyyah, internationally acclaimed author of If I Should Speak, His Other Wife, and Reverencing the Wombs That Broke You discusses how she fought to hold on to