What happens after a suicide? Ten years after the suicide of a close friend, Sabrina Muller writes about her personal mourning process in short blogs and in-depth analyses. She tells of her numbness after the bad news, of the unbearable moments, of her phases of grief. She tells of rage, her own life tiredness, disappointment, and loneliness. Where were friends, community, even the church, when she herself urgently needed support? Muller speaks openly about the very difficult issues but also about what got her through this difficult time and how she slowly found her way back into a changed life. She profitably combines expert knowledge with